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chase. (chase__thewind) wrote,
@ 2008-09-19 00:13:00

Current location:	bedroom.
Current mood:	blah
Current music:	Kate Voegele - No Good

I am me .. but what does that even mean?

Well. Texas is officially off limits, for the time being. Remember when I said this weather was exciting? Yeah, scratch that. Well, I guess maybe it's the aftermath part that isn't so exciting. But still, sometimes I stand back and wonder what the hell I'm doing, you know? What's the point in running into helicopters aimed at a hurricane when the hurricane still does the damage it does?

I don't know.

It's just that times like this remind me that I'm more than just a weather girl. I'm more than a physics geek with a degree. I play the violin. A lot, actually. I love just sitting down with my violin, picking up the bow, and playing to the sound of rain tapping against the roof of Jake's house. I could probably land any concert violinist gig I wanted, if I auditioned. Maybe it's conceited of me to say, but then again, I'm just .. confident. Sometimes, anyway.

And .. I love to read. I can't count the number of times I've read Jane Eyre or The Great Gatsby. I have a more - or - less permanent subscription to TIME magazine and Newsweek. I know that over the last week, the stock market plummeted to all-time lows with the bankruptcy of Lehman Brothers, the buyout of Merrill Lynch by Bank of America, and the federal bail out of AIG.

And I'm like a million other people in this world. Everything I do has been done by .. hundreds, maybe even thousands, of people before me. People talk about that whole 'to the world you may be one person,' sentimentalist crap, but what does that even mean? I'm pretty sure I'm not the world to one person and I am just one person to the rest of the world. So am I irrelevant? Because sometimes I think I am.

I stand back and look at my brother. He saves lives on a daily basis. My sister creates magic from film. Me? I chase storms. Whoopee.

That's all my life is. One big chase.

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browneyed__girl
2008-09-18 11:35 pm UTC (link)

You see? This is your problem. You look at what I do or what Jake does, and you turn it into this huge amazing thing. But you don't really see what you do.

You are one of the most courageous, brilliant, and talented people that I know. So maybe you 'chase storms' like so many others before you. But the look on your face when you hear about a storm front moving in? Or the way you get lost in your music when you're playing? That can't be replicated. That is you, and only you. And if you can't see how cool that makes you? Well, than you're a giant idiot, too.

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	chase__thewind 2008-09-18 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	Wait, wait. Giant idiot too? Who else is on your list of idiots? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	browneyed__girl 2008-09-18 11:40 pm UTC (link)
	Currently? ~~Me.~~ Kieran. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chase__thewind 2008-09-18 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	As your sister, I demand to be the bigger idiot. It's not FAIR if Kieran gets top billing over me. I mean, c'mon. What am I, if I can't even be the biggest idiot on my sister's list? Also, scratch outs do not count in the world of sisters. What's up? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private. browneyed__girl 2008-09-18 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	I'm stupid. That's what's up. Of course, that isn't exactly a new bit of news, is it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private. chase__thewind 2008-09-19 12:01 am UTC (link)
	If you think you're stupid, Angie, then you are a giant idiot. Because you're not. Does this have to do with Jake being a male dog acting like he's run out of fire hydrants to piss on? Because I could totally beat on him for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private. browneyed__girl 2008-09-19 12:04 am UTC (link)
	No. It has to do with me not realizing things before it's too late to do a damn thing about it. Though, you could still beat up Jake if you want. It might make for some good entertainment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	private. chase__thewind 2008-09-19 12:07 am UTC (link)
	I'm on it like stink on cheese. What didn't you realize? And FYI? Unless it's a haircut, it's never too late to do a damn thing about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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browneyed__girl, 2008-09-20 09:48 am UTC

only because I just saw my name.

kieran_writes
2008-09-19 10:22 pm UTC (link)

I"ll kindly pass it on to you, but being fair, I do deserve top billing in some category.

Only because I've seen " Twister " a number of times, I envy and remain equally cautious of your profession. I just can't get my head around " Kieran Devlin. He lived a good life until he got caught in ( blank ) storm." Printed on my tombstone.

Not to be morbid or disrespectful, just a personal preference, really.

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my, MY, you're observant.

chase__thewind
2008-09-20 02:05 am UTC (link)

Sorry, sister trumps bedmate every time bud. Better luck next time though ;)
Well. A good chaser doesn't get caught in the storms. But now I'm tempted to have that printed on your tombstone, just for the shits and giggles of it all.
I take it you're Hugh Heffner's Bunnie #1? And by Hugh Heffner, I mean my big sister up there, and by 'Bunnie #1,' I mean one of her gazillion boyfriends?

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I just like it when I see my name mentioned.

kieran_writes
2008-09-20 02:13 am UTC (link)

bedmate?, things like that happen when I drink to much. blackouts, not what you were thinking. Although, I don't think I shared a bed with her, a couch maybe.

She is quite a pimp isn't she? I do think I should get some type of robe with my name in it, maybe a big " K" on the right breast, or maybe a big " A" but not to denote exclusive property, more like " leased" for foot massages and the like.

And if I'm Bunnie #1 does that make me Kendra, because I really can't rap.

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	bet it doesn't happen often, then. chase__thewind 2008-09-20 02:16 am UTC (link)
	I'm pretty sure 'bedmate' is a universal term applicable to any and all surfaces that one can, in fact, do the nasty on. Ie. Chairs, floors, kitchen tables, couches, balconies, etc. You know, I thought that said 'probe' for a minute. Wouldn't surprise me, either. No, if you're bunnie #1, you're Kieran: Bunnie #1. Also? That icon is mildly disturbing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)